I think too much. Yea, those analytical skills serve me fairly well academic-wise, but it’s crippling at times in real life. For instance, I need a new dresser since the Kmart special I’d been using throughout grad school is falling apart. In true Aunaptural fashion I’ve researched several different options: the tiny dresser in the basement with 2 shallow drawers? Or maybe I should find something from IKEA? Or maybe I could replace it with another Kmart special since I have a gift card? Or maybe… All of these questions came from me thinking about my problem and analyzing several plausible solutions, but this is where I often get stuck. It has been weeks since the first drawer came undone and I have yet to purchase another dresser.

Why am I always stuck in this perpetual loop of thinking and inaction? Perhaps it is a fear of failure and/or a fear that I’ll regret my choices later on. I often get so crippled with fear of doing something wrong that I just simply do nothing. I mean, you can’t make a mistake if you do nothing, right? WRONG! The first mistake here is that line of reasoning. The next mistake is staying still. If I don’t act then I have failed because I didn’t give myself a chance to succeed.

I said in a previous post how I wanted more. Well, I won’t have more of whatever I desire if I don’t stop this cycle of analysis. I must pick a choice and act upon it. If a mistake is made I won’t know until after the act is done and I’ll have to deal with that when it comes…